Friday, June 3, 2011

Skeptic

1 Timothy 1:3-5
"As I besought thee to abide still at Ephesus, when I went into Macedonia, that thou mightest charge some that they teach no other doctrine, Neither give heed to fables and endless genealogies, which minister questions, rather than godly edifying which is in faith: so do. Now the end of the commandment is charity out of a pure heart, and of a good conscience, and of faith unfeigned:


Sunday I spent a whole hour focused on on only 3 verses. I never thought I would get frustrated reading the bible, but alas, I got pretty close yesterday. Reading these verses got me all confused at what Paul meant by them. I know they may be pretty simple, however like I mentioned in the title, I am a skeptic. Reading a few commentaries, I got the same idea from all of them. My main question was when Paul refers to the "commandment" in verse 5, what commandment was he referring to?? All the commentaries I was able to find associated that commandment to the divinely given "Greatest Commandments." (Matthew 22:37-40) However, when I read it, I automatically associated the commandment in verse 5 with the command (or charge) he told Timothy to give in verse 3. I found an awesome relatively literal greek to english translation of 1 Timothy, and in both instances, Paul uses the same root, just a different conjugation. So I just can't convince myself that he was referring to a different commandment. Like I mentioned earlier, I spent quite a while struggling over this, just trying to find and explanation of how he could mean the "Greatest commandments."

Now if Paul did mean the "Greatest Commandments," then verse 5 would be easy to understand. The purpose of the "Greatest Commandments" now is to have a pure heart, a good conscience, and sincere faith. And through those three things, love.

On the contrary however, if Paul referred to the charge he wants Timothy to give those who are teaching false doctrines, this passage has a different application. In both scenarios, Paul instructs us that we should have love, and this love should sprout from a particular state in which we are in. 

Despite what Paul was referring to, we are still to desire the purity,goodness, and sincerity and Paul speaks of. The different interpretations in no way take away the ultimate point Paul was attempting to make. However, since I am a skeptic, I often get caught up in whether the interpretation is accurate. I suppose if Paul referred to points of the faith which were not necessarily in context, then it would be rather accurate to assume he did so again here. Unfortunately I am not that observant when reading through Paul's letters, so I am not able to speak of one way or the other. 

This is an instance where I don't simply want to except what other theologians have come up with, and want to find out for myself. Unfortunately, in this passage, along with my inadequate knowledge of the scriptures, I don't think I can really know at this time.. 

Friday, May 27, 2011

Drawing near to God

I shared this with a friend recently in a note, and i thought it would be a decent first post.


James 4:7-8 
"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded."


These verses reveal to me how much power we have in our spiritual walks. Often times I feel as if God will be near to me when He desires, and will be far from me when he desires. However, James explains to us that we have a sense of control. We not only contain the ability to have God draw near to us, we also are able to cause the devil to flee from us. Whenever I find myself distant from God, these verses are a continual reminder of where my thoughts and pursuits should be. I have to analyze whether I am drawing near to God, or instead just standing by waiting for Him. Also am I daily resisting the attacks of the devil, or am I allowing hie to sneak his lies into my thoughts? 
I love how James incorporates cleansing our hands and purifying our hearts into drawing near to God. It is almost as if we cannot have one without the other. He partially gives us an idea of where to start. To me, this is equivalent to acknowledging, confessing, and turning our sins over to our Lord. Through this we humble ourselves, and also bring ourselves to the feet of our Father. 


These verses have been a very intricate part of this last semester. My relationship with my heavenly Father has been consistently inconsistent. For a week, I feel close, constantly in His presence, reaping the joy and comfort He offers His children. Then the next week, it is as if I hardly remember the blessings I found in His presence, and hardly spend a second thought on the idea of spending time with Him. This constant wave that defines my spiritual walk is tiring, and reveals my weaknesses. It shouts my need for a hand to carry me when I am weak, to hold on to me when my desire is to run back to the pigsty.


"O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above."